just make the whole thing... you know, cooler. it needs to be 20% cooler.

So yesterday my aunt turned to me and said, "You know, [name redacted], I've been thinking a lot about you lately." I said, quite eloquently, "Oh."

DOESN'T THAT SOUND ALARMING TO YOU, FLIST? I found it quite alarming. She is the gossipiest aunt ever, and I have the sneaking suspicion that when she says "thinking about you" she actually means "talking about you with my sister/mother/other relative." Of course all my other relatives are in Canada, and they already think I'm the weird girl who wears cartoon hats*, so I'm not really that bothered.

Speaking of dubious fashion choices! I made a leather bracelet thing today, it's awesome. And I know leather cuffs are at, like, entire toolbox levels of toolishness, BUT I JUST REALLY LOVE THEM. don't judge me ;___;



YOU ARE IMPRESSED, Y/Y/MFY? Once you look closely you realize the ~craftswomanship is at kindergarten level, because the leather strips are all fucked up because they were cut with scissors and I never learned how to cut straight. Alas.

*I didn't actually upload this pic, jsyk. But I totally own that hat.

hello flist! I feel like I haven't seen you in ages. :')

Things have been looking up lately. I've started seeing a therapist (first time ever!), and she's really been helping me out with a lot of things. I'm by no means ~problem free~, but I'm on the road to feeling better and getting my life together and stuff and stuff. \o/ I'M OPTIMISTIC. :D

So I'm going to go ?skip=100 now and see if I can get a better idea about what you guys have been up to lately. :D:

This is super late, but a million thank yous to mesmorizee for the chocolate userhead! When I got it I was all :DDDDDDDDDDDDDD irl. ♥

GUYS. GUYS. I am seriously freaking out right now. D:

So I've got a 15 year old sister. I'll call her A. A has a guy friend (I'll call him Tiny Tim. Inside joke.) who likes her, and he's not subtle about it. We used to think this was funny, and we'd all tease A about it, joking how they were in ~loooooooove.

BUT THEN. I was with A and her friends the other day (as the appointed chauffeur, yay) and I saw A and Tiny Tim hugging. Like full-body, grab-you-from-behind hugs.

WAT. WAT IS THIS SHIT. I don't like Tiny Tim. He's a super religious, homophobic, sexist little shit who would sleep with a girl and then call her a slut (not that he's ever slept with anyone, lol). A likes him, tho, because when he's not talking about anything of importance he seems like a sweet guy. (I guess. >:[ )

Now I'm thinking - what if she has sex with him? I'm not crazy about this idea (SHE'S JUST A BABY OMG /biased), but what bothers me more is -- she's never had a sex education. She doesn't have access to condoms, as as far as I know she wouldn't even know what to do with one if she did.

I talked with my mom about this, and she says she's been watching then closely. This isn't as implausible as it sounds, because my sister's homeschooled. But still, SHIT HAPPENS. If teenagers want to have sex they probably will.

In my mom's mind, sex education + access to contraceptives = encouraging teenage shenanigans. In my mind, HOLY SHIT WHAT IF SHE GETS PREGNANT. But I feel like giving my sister The Talk might be stepping out of bounds, a bit.

idk. What should I do, you guys? Should I let my mom do her thing? Or should I send my little sister links to sex education websites and try to talk to her? (I doubt she'd appreciate that.)

MOM: Men wear wallets and women wear purses. You have a wallet, and that's manly.

ME: lol no. I like my manly wallet, tyvm~

MOM: There are only two genders: man and woman. EVERYONE ELSE IS A MUTATION

ME: That's not true! INCORRECT GENDER BINARY

DAD: Yes it is! BIOLOGY blah blah EVOLUTION blah blah

[annoying conversation here]

ME: So you don't think boys are socialized to be more violent?

DAD: Well... MAYBE IN ARABIC COUNTRIES

ME: D:

....I KEEP FORGETTING RL IS NOT FANDOM, GUYS. Apparently, most people believe there are two genders with a clear line that separates them. And maybe that's true for some people, but the whole THERE ARE MEN (ON MARS!) AND WOMEN (ON VENUS!) is such a bizarre concept to me.

Also, the surprise!racism at the end was... pleasant. My dad as this habit, tho. If he sees an opportunity to talk about the crazy japanese/violent muslims/[insert offensive statement about poc here], HE WILL TAKE IT.

I GOT A D ON A CLASS I WAS ACING

BECAUSE THE MOTHERFUCKING TA LOST MY MOTHERFUCKING MIDTERM

FFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU

...

;_;

You know what sucks? EVERYTHING.

Okay, that might be an exaggeration, but I'm feeling super mopey today. Issue on my mind: With my little sister, it feels like I'm always defending her but I can never depend on her to do the same for me. It's depressing, that's what it is.

Even more, sometimes she'll agree with me on the issue on hand but STILL sides with the ~opposition. Ultimate betrayal. :[

( lala )

tldr; my sister told me to shut up and said I was being too ~angry and irrational and did that thing people do when they look at you like you're a stupid fuck unworthy of their attention. And I KNOW she agrees with me on this specific issue, but apparently backing me up would conflict with her constant need to belittle and undercut everything I say.

Whatever.

Anyone on my flist watch the show Pretty Little Liars? I was bored last night and decided to watch the first ep online, and I rather liked it. I know, I know, I enjoy a mediorce drama on ABC Family. Look at you life, look at your choices, etc~

So far, my favorite characters are Emily and Aria. :D I'm kind of mesmerized by Aria's eyebrows, ngl. Don't hate, I have a thing for eyebrows with ~character~

Late, but -- HAPPY NEW YEAR, EVERYONE! \o/

2011 sounds even more futuristic than 2010, y/y? It's totally weird.

I always talk about how useless new year's resolutions are, but I'm going to make a tentative one anyway, hah.

I'd like to try and put myself out there a bit more -- talk to people I don't know, be more assertive, etc. I'm never going to be a social butterfly, but that doesn't mean I have to be a total recluse. :D

OH FLIST, YOU ARE AWESOME AND SURELY WILL BE ABLE TO HELP ME WITH MY CHRISTMAS SHOPPING, Y/Y?

Do any of you know of good mp3 players with radio? I'm thinking of getting one for my mom on Christmas. :D She uses this old discman from the stone age but it only does radio and cassette tapes, no mp3s. (Seriously. STONE AGE.)

I was thinking about getting a Zune because it has radio and I've heard good things about the newer version. Also the Zune screen is pretty big and my mom is farsighted but refuses to get glasses. (♥) I don't want to get an ipod Nano because it's too small and I think she wouldn't know how to use it, haha. She has trouble turning on her computer, okay. I'm planning to pre-load music onto it because god knows she wouldn't be able to do it herself. (lol mom ilu)

So, question is: do you know of any good mp3 players with radio that are easy to use? Preferably under 150$, but I can probably go over if I convince my sisters to pitch in, lol.

EDIT: Shit, I just realized that most of the radio she listens to is AM, not FM. Do they even make mp3 players with AM? Maybe I should get her a portable radio instead...